So what do I want you to know about me? I’m pretty open about my background on the podcast, but in case you haven’t listened through the back catalog (which you should totally do :) I’ll give you the broad strokes here.
I got my professional start in the Marine Corps in 1993 and received excellent training in electronics repair. That got me started in technology and after I got out of the Corps I moved into PC repair and programming. Since then, I’ve been predominantly self-employed or worked for very small companies, all somehow technology related.
Along the way I picked up my Bachelor’s degree in Health Behavior Management, but I never did anything with it out of fear of losing the income I had from my various technology companies and jobs. That was the easy money for me even though I wasn’t totally passionate about it.
In fact, I had very little passion for anything. I did have a lot of frustration, depression, anxiety, and fear. I also had a pattern of walking away from companies I’d started after 3-4 years because they weren’t what I wanted them to be. And that’s where I was about 2 years ago. Preparing to walk away from another company that I wasn’t happy with feeling like a failure.
But I had to step back and take a look at what all these experiences had in common. The obvious answer was, they all had me in common. So I had to take a look at myself. I’d had world class technical and leadership training in the Marine Corps. I’d been to sales training programs, hired marketing coaches, belonged to expensive mastermind groups, read hundreds of books, taken classes, and any and everything else I could find to help improve myself. I’d even tried various therapists and anti-depressant drugs along the way (as well as some self-medication geared more toward escapism than healing). But I was still not getting the results I wanted, results I could be happy with.
So, I got a referral for a counselor that helped my friend get excellent results, and I went back in to work on myself.
What I realized pretty quickly was that I had gotten really good at repressing and ignoring almost every emotion, or so I thought. The anger I was “holding in” was leaking out all over the place, in the form of that anxiety and depression I’d always struggled with. Worse than that, I was so afraid of other people I was always protecting myself. And knowing business is about relationships, we do business with people we know, like, and trust, and that sales is a process of emotional transfer, it became very clear very quickly where I was running into trouble with my businesses.
And it wasn’t in any of the areas I’d been looking, where most business owners look, in sales, marketing, or leadership. It was quite simply in my own emotional health and happiness. If I wasn’t happy, if I didn’t start with a feeling of success, nothing I did or built could give me those feelings. Nothing outside of me could *make* me feel happy and successful.
So my journey over the past couple years has been to rediscover my true self, that happy and smart little kid I started as, and let him be in charge for a while.
And the payoff was almost immediate. Within months my business started turning around. 2 years later and I just sold that company. I went from losing money every month to a profitable sustainable company that had actual equity value. I also started my Be Build Have podcast and some individual and group coaching programs for entrepreneurs and small business owners struggling with some of the same challenges I had.
As soon as I started sharing this message of emotional healthy, happiness, and success with fellow business owners and at local networking events, people started approaching me and thanking me for speaking into this difficult issue. I realized early on that there was a real need for emotional health support in business, especially among entrepreneurs and small business owners.
So now my mission is to serve that need and to find ways to support others like me, who have struggles with emotional health and happiness that are impacting their business results, to heal and move forward.
So, let’s go :)